Tantric Revealed

It’s been a minute since I’ve blogged. I feel as if I am on this journey right now and I don’t want it to stop. I am creating such a wonderful flow of love and freedom and finding myself, I am too ecstatic with myself!

Last week I had a tantric session with Jason Hairston. I was nervous. I was uncomfortable. I was uneasy. I was leery. My first thought was, he just wants to have sex. I mean, that was the standard response I had heard from so many who had experienced tantric sessions with other people. My second thought was, I’m not trying to get naked in front of him, because he’s just going to want to have sex. In other words, it all boiled down to it being about sex and me not being interested in a sexual experience to be able to feel whatever the hell I was supposed to be able to feel. But Jason is a friend. I trust him. So I went ahead and booked the appointment.

When I get to the session, a warm tight hug, dimly lit aromatic candles and soft meditation music greet me. We sit together as he discusses his intentions with this session. #1. I don’t have to take off any clothes. #2. This has nothing to do with sex. It’s about love. It’s about healing. My nerves were calmed and on the bed I went. As I closed my eyes, I was asked to take some deep breaths and relax. I could feel his hands moving up and down my body. There was no touch at all. My mind was wandering everywhere; from what he was doing with his hands to what scented candles he had lit. It took a while for me to just relax with him standing over me.

After a while, my nerves calmed down and I began feeling something that resembled electric waves moving throughout my body. As he moved his hands over certain areas of my body, it intensified. As he moved his hands over my forehead, I could feel the heat from his hands, to the point that I wondered if he was holding a candle to my head. It was intense. My heart was racing, at times I felt as if my head was pounding and during moments, it was as if I was being shocked by his energy being transferred to my body. Every time I felt excited, I would get nervous. Every time I would want to let go, I would hold on. I was holding my breath. Then he got close to me and whispered, “Breathe. And let go.”

I took a deep breath and the tears started flowing from my eyes. I don’t know why. I wasn’t sad. I wasn’t hurting. I wasn’t even scared anymore. But they were pouring down and I couldn’t stop them. And when it was all said and done, I felt as if I had become a new person. I felt alive and full of energy again. I think I had been feeling drained for so long….drained by so many people…. Someone finally came and recharged my battery and it was one of the most exhilarating experiences I have ever had.

I still have a long way to go. But I am going to keep enjoying these moments of pleasure until I can share these experiences with a partner. I am going to keep learning how to let go and just be.

Love & Light